ad.dic.tion – (n) – The fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing or activity

On April 27th I posted an article “Hi, my name is Chris, and I’m a sugar addict.”  It was half serious and half tongue-in-cheek, because I was feeling so much better as a result of the Whole30 program, and I knew that in large part it was due to the fact that I had cut added sugar out of my diet.  Everything that I posted then was true, and I thought I had it under control.  I mean I had lost 20 lbs, was feeling awesome, and as they said in Whole30, I’m an adult, so I could make smart choices, right?

Well, the thing I have learned about my original “Sugar Addict” post is that while we sometimes think we can control things, , sometimes you can’t control things.  Sugar cravings are one of those things for me.  During Whole30 I was very strict to follow the plan and cut out all added sugars, and then even after the end of the 30 days through the end of Summer.  The whole time I felt great, and maintained my weight.  Then one day I was at Circle K filling up my truck, when I got a craving for a Big Gulp.  “Just one, I said.”  What harm could come from just one?

Then on a trip to Walgreens and on my way to the checkout line I passed down the candy aisle and saw them.  Sour Patch Kids.  “Just one, I said”  What harm could come from just one?  A few days later I was in Harris Teeter, and on my way to check out, I passed through the Deli and saw those tubs of a dozen Chocolate Chunk Cookies on a BOGO sale.  “Just one, I said”

What harm could come from just one?

I think Lays said it best in their classic commercials, “No one can eat just one.”  Especially when you have an addiction underlying those cravings for “just one.”  You see, the Circle K was on my way to work, and those Big Gulps were just $0.75, and were such a nice pick me up in the morning.  The tubs of cookies were always conveniently placed where you had to walk right past them to get to the checkout line, and half a dozen of them went down oh so well with a glass of cold milk when I was trying to unwind at the end of a long day.  Oh, and then Halloween arrived……can you say Chocolate?

I sit here today back at 191 lbs, still eating a good amount of vegetables with each meal, and very little in the way of gluten grains.  All in all, a pretty healthy diet considering where I was before April and my run on Whole30.  The only thing that has changed since the summer is that I’m back on added Sugars as much or even more that I was before Whole30.  Connection?  Yeah, I think so…..

A change is not a change when it is only temporary, and you don’t make a commitment to maintaining the change that you made.  If you lapse back into old habits and ways of thinking, then you haven’t really changed anything.

As of today, I have made the decision that for my health and sanity I’m going to have to go cold turkey on added Sugars.  It truly is an addiction for me, and as with any true addiction, be it alcohol, drugs, anything, you have to avoid the thing that you are addicted to, because the very nature of the addiction is going to make it impossible to have “just one.”

Just change something…………….